This post, while it will cover the fact that I had train fiascos coming back and had to switch tickets and re-route myself (there, I covered it) I really want to focus on the reason I ventured to Holland for just one night.
My grandfather, William H. Starns, was killed in the Battle of the Bulge. Buried in The Netherlands American Cemetery and Memorial, none of my family has had the opportunity to visit his grave - until now.
The cemetery is hauntingly beautiful. Family of the deceased are treated differently. I was escorted to my grandfathers grave by the American in charge of overseeing the cemetery that day. He took a camera, and a bucket of sand and discussed my grandfather with me as we walked to plot B, row 18, grave 18. I had brought a bouquet of flowers and my guide carried an American flag and a special vase for the fall assembly of daisies, roses, and tulips, among others. As my escort placed the sand along the inscription of my grandfather's name, he explained to me that the sand was used to make the words more visible (for photos) and was brought from the beaches of Normandy specifically for this purpose.
As I placed the flowers in the vase, he inserted the flag just to the left into the ground and backed up to take a photo. Then, the guide left me alone with my thoughts. I sat down next to my grandfather's grave and started sharing my life with him. I talked about all I had done so far and how he'd be proud of me. I sat there for a good long time, hoping he could hear me somehow. Think of it as crazy or touching, your choice.
When I returned to the visitor's office, my helpful employee had several things ready for me. He had printed out the photo on a card with the row, plot, grave and other information. Also, he had researched more information about grandpa that I hadn't previously known and printed it out. On top of that, there was an elegant folder with more facts on the cemetery, and a DVD about the cemetery, including interviews and stories from relatives of the deceased. I thought it was going to be strictly about the cemetery, but when I began watching it while waiting for the train, elderly brothers were being interviewed about their oldest sibling who was buried in the cemetery. The old man's breath caught in his throat, and I began to cry. I cried a lot today.
Also in the folder was a pamphlet about adoption. Each grave in the cemetery (all 8,301) has been adopted and it has the strongest family/adopting family ties. I'm really interested in learning about the Dutch family who cares for my grandfather when we can't be there.
There are almost 2,000 graves of unknown soldiers. Names are marked on the wall near the entrance to the cemetery, and each individual grave reads: Here rests in honored glory, a comrade in arms, known but to God.
I love you, Grandpa.
Je t'aime








