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Our world is just so magnificent.

I've begun to think that I'm only attracted to a certain type of person that's almost unattainable, at least for me. First off, I'm almost freakishly tall for a girl and it's hard to find someone taller and muscular enough so that we look good together. I'm not into a certain type, so to speak, but I seem to like dark haired guys more often. I want someone who has a nice smile, is funny, attractive, educated, has the ability to teach me something new, has a balance of smoothness and silliness and someone I can share things with.
I don't feel attracted to really anyone anymore, and I'm starting to get scared that I'll just end up alone because my standards are too high? Below are some examples of guys I am into:

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All of these men have strong jawlines and Tom Welling is muscular and either 6'3" or 6'4" - I forget. To me, that's swoon-worthy.
It's not just that I'm only attracted to these types of people, but I'm reduced to going on dating sites to find someone and the only people who are interested in me, look like this:

I don't know about you, but people like this make me uneasy.

It's stressful to know that I'm only attracted to people who will (most likely) never be attracted to me. The above three people are the ones I could think of off the top of my head that are attractive enough for my taste. To be quite honest, there has not been one person in a very long time that has piqued my interest. In all honesty, I wasn't attracted to my last boyfriend for the first month and a half of non-exclusive dating.

It feels horrible to not be attracted to anyone below "drop-dead gorgeous" appeal, but that's just how it is. I'm worried the guys I'm attracted to will never be attracted to me, and I'll end up having to settle for Child-Molester-Mustache-Man (as seen above) who is shorter than me (HUGE turn off, by the way - I just am not, nor have I ever been, attracted to someone who isn't at least 2 inches taller than me. I don't know how my standards got so high. I've always been broken up with, and I'm not known for having the best self-confidence so I'm at a loss for why I've stopped being attracted to anything less than a 9.5.

I know some people are going to say "You set your sights too high and you're going to end up alone" or "What a bitch" or some other condescending phrase. I already can hear it being shouted at me in my head, so don't waste your time voicing it.

I just don't know what to do....

Professor Lee Teabing/Gandalf for the win

Remember your history, kids!

Holy Crap this is accurate...

I took a personality/color test that was supposed to be really accurate. I thought, "sure, yeah, right" but as I kept reading..... 90% of this is accurate. Insane!

Your Existing Situation

"Is stubborn and strong-willed, once her mind is made up it is impossible to change it. she does not ask for much, so she feels when she does ask her needs should be met."

Your Stress Sources

"Looking to stand out in the crowd and wanting to keep her rank and status. her current situation is irritating her because she can't seem to find anybody out there who values the same high standards she does. she is feeling isolated and wants to give in to her carnal urges, but can't bring herself to appear weak in the eyes of others. Wants others to see her unique qualities and character but can't stand to come off as needy, so instead she has an ""I don't care"" attitude and pushing people away. she turns her back on those who criticizes her behavior, but beneath her indifference is a person who is in desperate need of approval."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"His desire to avoid open conflict and tension forces her to put her desires on hold, even though she is feeling restrained and uneasy."

"Self-centered, tends to take this personally and is easily offended, which leaves her feeling isolated."

Current situations have left her feeling overwhelmed and tormented. Needs to avoid further activity or demands and concentrate on relaxing and becoming emotionally sound.

Applies tough standards to her potential partner and demands an unrealistic perfection in her sex life.

"Although she feels isolated and alone, she is afraid of forming deep, meaningful relationships. Is conceited and is easily offended."

Your Desired Objective

"Feels that nothing can upset her or phase her and is constantly trying to prove that to herself and others. Believes she is better than any weakness. As a result of her beliefs, she comes across as harsh or severe to those around him, with an overbearing and arrogant attitude."

Your Actual Problem

"Has been disappointed and let down, believes it is pointless to come up with new goals as they will most likely disappoint as well. Needs to be recognized and respected, but is worried about the future. Reacts by avoiding situations where she will be criticizes or others will attempt to influence her. Tries to take charge of the situation by controlling the details and strengthen her position. "

Your Actual Problem #2

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."

As I approach the middle of the term, it still hasn't hit me that in a few months, I'll be halfway across the world, far from everything and everyone I've known. Still, I welcome the adventure. I'll be spending 9 months in Poitiers, France - a beautiful town situated near the Loire Valley. It has a combination of Renaissance and Gothic style, which is appealing to me. It's about 2 hours (or thereabouts) by train to Paris and around 100km (60mi) to Tours. I just made my visa appointment at the French Consulate in San Francisco the other day, and am eager to get down there and get everything situated.
At this very moment, I'm procrastinating doing a french assignment (around 300 words) on "Don Juan" for my French Theater class. It's an interesting enough class, it's just hard to be motivated when Mondays and Wednesdays are French class (very "left brain") and Tuesdays and Thursdays are Geology and Astronomy (which are more "right brain" to me). It's difficult to switch gears, but it has to be done.
I'm hoping that my friend, Victoria, will be abroad at the same time as me, so we can get together at some point. She'll be in Aarhus, Denmark during the same year I'll be in Poitiers, if everything works right.

Don Juan is calling my name, and I believe it futile to resist.

Bornholm Island

Well Bornholm, you kicked my butt last night. I reallky can't understand how the Danes do it night after night. I feel awful this morning.

I am headed on a ferry to Sweden today, so that should be interesting (read: not fun). Then when we get back to Copenhagen, all of us are going to change, and head to TIVOLI!!!!! I am really excited. I can't seem to access my online account to see how much money I have left, which is frustrating.

We went and saw the island yesterday. It is quickly becoming my favorite place in Denmark. Just cute and gorgeous.

Part of me wants to stay, and part of me is ready to return home. This morning I just feel like I want my mommy. I can't wait to experience Tivoli. The students from Rungsted are meeting us in Copenhagen, so we get to see them once more. :-)